Life. Dreams…and knocking into lamp posts

because there’s no one i could turn to.
what is life when family became opponents, work without passion, love became routine…and then u realised u didn’t know who to call when u pick up the phone.

For home-sweet-home…

1. working desk

2. working chair

3. exercise mat

4. juice blender

For work…

5. shoes

6. More tops :p

7. More necklace :p

7. netbook or PDA (still in mourning for the death of my dream MS Courier)

Sigh…I need more $$$!

After months of training (and not training), finally the final week before the marathon day has arrived. After slacking off during the exam weeks and Taiwan trip, I was determined to do my last minute training and hopefully run all the way and end with acceptable finishing time. And then the unexpected happened. I fell. I fell on my knees on my way down the super steep slope at Kt Ridge Park. Nope I wasn’t trying to pray to God to help me in my last minute training, though the pose sure seemed like it. And I wasn’t even running down. Sigh. Ended up walking all the way back in the dark in my bleeding knees. Spent the rest of the week doing minimum walking, let alone running.

On the day, arrived at Pasir Ris mrt at 7.30pm, thought it shouldn’t be a problem for me to arrive at the site by 8pm, until i saw the queue for the shuttle bus. It was madness! 5 minutes before 8pm and we’ve decided to share a cab with fellow classmate JW who’s also going for the 21km run. Madness didn’t end there though. Due to traffic jam, we alighted 3km away from our destination. Pre-marathon walking, good warm up yeah.

Despite all the craziness, I am glad I ran all the way and didn’t gave in to the temptation of walking esp during the last few kilometres where more and more ppl walked around me:) The last km was esp tough i must say. Although I didn’t manage to finish according to my expected 2hr45mins, clocking a 3hr 0min 58s wasn’t too bad:) I’m really glad rabbit was there waiting for me and accompanying me pre- and post-run.

The most-asked question: would I go for a proper full marathon (42km)?

Hmm…not in these 2 yrs haha

Forced myself to wake up early for a run to Kt Ridge Park. Half way back suddenly felt a sharp pang of hunger, almost felt like i’m gonna experience severe hypo if i continue, so walked the rest of my way back…mixed feelings of joy for having an excuse not to run, but guilt and worry as the marathon is drawing near and i’ve barely trained past 10km (Aim: 21km).

Finals in 2 weeks time. Industrial pharm tutorial driving me nuts. For past 3 Patient counseling sessions, I’ve already almost killed 2 pseudo patients. And with my deteriorating SOAPing skills, I really wonder whether I should explore other career paths outside clinical. It is surprising, that I really gave considerable amount of thought into not being a clinical pharmacist (aka mainstream). It has never crossed my mind since the day i decided to join the pharmacy dept, no matter how tough the syllabus was or how demotivated i was with exam results.

Zoomed tru 5 Natural Pdts lectures (going to 6th)…not bad…but hell knows what i need to know about yin yang qi.

Now i just can’t wait for supper house to be open so i can get my dipper (dinner + supper)- spicy fried rice!:)

Just hit me that I just signed up for the half marathon without giving any thoughts on training schedule/ background research. Briefly surfed the net for tips on choosing a suitable running shoes and realised i am totally ignorant. Over/ normal/ underpronation…okkk…*still dazed from new info input*

Saw a fellow pharmer’s FB post that we’ll all gonna be dead after CNY with the workload/ CAs scheduled…and I actively refused to accept for the past weeks and obviously up till this morning, “my lovely morn”. Argh…my laziness has reached its peak of these 4 years.

Oh dear, hopefully it’s not too late to catch up on a proper training schedule. And I’ll start studying…hopefully it’s not too late (I don’t wanna “du shu” during CNY, ’cause I don’t wanna lose my money in gambling >.<)

I always enjoyed the peace and serenity on a weekend morning. No work, no busy traffic. No rushing to work/ class. My favourite is being able to enjoy a proper breakfast (esp half-boiled eggs) while leisurely reading the newspaper or magazine.

This morning i woke up at 8am and jogged via Kent Ridge Park to Canterbury Rd and back. Now that im back in my room with sound pollution from the bus terminal, i realised what peace i had jogging through the park surrounded by lush greenery and birds chirping away. Also caught sight of some of the “atas” bungalows along Canterbury Rd. One of them even had a swimming pool! And there’s this one house right in the middle of Kent Ridge Park. I guess this is really a luxury when one is living in a city state.

And of course, I had my double half-boiled egg (though it’s more to 3/4 boiled) and chilled milo…yummy!:)

Had a wonderful Sunday morning swim with friends today. Finally tried swimming in a deep pool (deep= my feet couldn’t touch the ground) & didn’t drown!XD Glad that i had a bunch of “bodyguards” who swam around me & enticed me to keep swimming forward, otherwise i would’ve really freaked out lol.

Took part in a community service project called “Go Green” for 2 full nights & 1 whole saturday. It did took up quite alot of my time but i didn’t regret a single moment:) Basically I did house visits to those middle class families that had applied for financial assistance before to just see how are they coping and have their condition improved/ any problems now etc. Met and spoke to many different ppl from diff races, cultures, educational background and gained alot of insight on the many common problems many singaporean families are facing nowadays. Home loans, children’s schooling expenses, unemployment and lack of caregiver are amongst the most common problems faced. Although i am well aware of the existence of these issues, somehow speaking to them triggered alot of thoughts and questions. One particular question that’s been in my mind is related to this woman that expressed that even she’s having unknown gut bleeding she has no extra money to go for endoscopy or whatsoever. I was told that diagnostic tests are not covered under Medisave, and I have yet to find any information that states otherwise…but why? If one can’t confirm the diagnosis of a disease, how is one supposed to proceed to the next step ie treatment? I have no experience or insights whatsoever on policy-making, but i personally feel that there is a loophole in the system as seen here.

All in all, I’ve gained valuable insights into various common issues in the community. Hopefully some day i will be able to do something about them…

Of all the things that can wreak havoc on your self-esteem- and plenty of things can- the regret of an unlived life might well be the foremost.